As the light goes dim
As my fate turns grim
I wait for you here
Waiting and fading
Just hoping you’ll find me
Or ill find you
In this internal maze
Looking inside and out
Just to find what I am without
I love you so much
But I can’t find you anymore
My love for you, my need for you
Is growing so strong
I just want to hold you in these last moments
Before I hit the stage
I just want to see your beautiful face
Don’t cry for me
Cause I do this to myself
I do it not for me
I do it for you
So you can find someone else
That will treat you better
That could love you more than I ever could
Someone that would never let you down like I have
Someone to support you and fill your heart up like you did mine
But still I want you in these moments
Moments before I hit the stage
Before the rope is tied
Before I cry my last cry
Speak my last words
Breathe my last breath
And think my last thought
My last thought of you
Thinking of your kisses
And how much I am going to miss you
How much I love you
And want to be with you
But I know I would just bring you down to my level
So I take myself away now
Hitting the stage
Tying the rope
Falling through the trap door
And held in this peaceful pose with a smile on my face
Colorless and lifeless am I now hanging below the stage
The smile left from the memories I have of you
And what could have been if I wasn’t born such a disgrace
Don’t look to close you may see the ripples on my throat
Where the rope rubbed me right
Closing my airways
So I cant breath anymore
So now I lay in my hell still dreaming about you
And wishing you the best of days