This is my last writing to you all
Before I end myself tonight
I have got it all planed out
Carved into my skin
Time set
Blade sharpened
Rope set in place
And my fate now bleeding on the shelf
Good-bye family and friends
And I left another note to my sweet and beautiful girl friend
Thanking her for her love and care
Thanking her for each moment we had together
Talking and holding hands
The connection we have is so great
But I can’t stand to stay
I know ill lose you
In the moments to come
I know you’ll leave me
For a better man
So here I make my final fall
Down the valley of death I crawl
Tasting my own blood
My sweet surrender
Made to face my demons
And to cut the skin so soft and tender
Open and break me inside and out
Take my love so I don’t have regrets
Remove my heart so I can’t feel its pain
And remove all memories of my shame
For I am going to be born again
In another land
Another flame
Burning me to tame
But still I feel the breaking pain
Between hell and pleasure
There’s that special place
Where I hide
Where I found my disgrace
Its there where you saw my shame
I finally I have found
Why you frown on the bright days
Its because I bring you down
For my past
For my ugly being
We had such a powerful love
Until that fateful day
When I broke it all away
And threw my life down the drain
I still love you as I lay in hell
But I still try to stop
For I know I am just a burden to you and myself
I knew that you cried when I died
But please don’t cry any more
I love you my angel
I realize I was never meant to be born
I was never suppose to live to find your grace
I just ruined your future
By showing you the love I hide
I wrote things for you
That you could connect with inside
It brightened your day
And made you smile
But still you felt my disgrace
I love you full heartedly
And this is the reason I still smile
No matter how high the flames
I still feel you inside
Inside my heart and mind
Running through every vein
Taking away my fears
Helping me resist the pain
I created this hell
Through my suicidal frenzy
Cutting down the fault line
I fell
Just hoping that in time
You will find someone else
A soul that could fill your heart much higher
Higher then the ashes of mine
So in my last words
My last moment in time
I say good-bye my love
My friends
My family
I wish you all well
For I know you will be now
Without my burden on you
You life will reach a greater high
I bleed for your future
I bleed to take away your fears
I bleed to watch you succeed
In my ever lasting realm of tears
Falling slowly to mend the broken years
From my mistaken birth
To my last moments in this room
I apologize in this letter
That will be stained red soon